How do I let go.....

Just sitting here thinking about a conversation I had with my son, Dustin, last night. I wnet on his blogspot and read that he is thinking about that same conversation! This is a hard transition for both of us right now. One is trying to spread his wings and fly higher with God...the other at a point a testing faith by letting him do just that!

i love this son...as I love both my boys...and it is here that I need to rely on the fact that he is now an adult and accountable to God...not me or his dad. He has to make is decission and choices based on that relationship. I may not always agree with his choices...he may do things that I would not even consider...but that does not and will not ever change the fact of my love fo him!

It is here that my faith is put to the test. Releasing him into God's capable hands was easy when I knew that he was in a safe enviroment...Master's Commission...but when he is now out on his own and having to make these same decission I need to trust that God is still there...speaking to him...and that he is capable of hearing from God just as much and in some cases more clearly , than I am!

The bottom line is...Do I trust God truly, fully, completle with my sons best interest? Do I trust that Dustin has a relationship with God that goes deep and that it is foundation for all his decisions? Do I trust God to teach him the lessons of life he now needs to learn and just give advice from my side? Do I trust that God is working in him and will help him sort out all the side before he makes decisions? Do I trust my son in God's hands more than in my own? Do I believe and trust this young man of God with his own life?

The answer is...YES to ALL the above...and this is said with more than words...from my heart and deeper...he is a man of God...God has placed a call upon his life that I have no right to question! I just need to be there for him to bounce things off of, give advice when asked, and not be offended if he choses differantly than my advice would chose! I love him and this is my stand! I love and Trust God and this is where I will stand firm agaisnt anyone who would try to deter him from the call of God on his life!

To Him who is able to do above and beyond all we can think or imagine...be glory and honor for now and forever...He is MORE than enough for my son and for me!!!!
God's best to you, Dustin...I am standing with you and on my knees for you,
Mom